fear factor

first thing first, beware aaa…because this post is quite full with ‘angkat bakul’ thing (yeah mel, i’ll tell the story here and i don’t care…ha ha ha).

i thought the day’ll never come. no need to struggle, no need to be scared but anywhoo it’s all in my dreams. my lecturer, well…bless her do a little twist to the lecture. for our class project, she tell us to do a debate with the group she picked. the title? (media tak terarah lebih baik daripada media terarah) unguided media (wireless) is better than guided media (wire). my group is the proposing team and the only kick is, my group mate is all girls. hmm…that makes me the pimp.

the lecturer gave us 2 weeks to prepare and eventually gives us 3 weeks because she was sick on the actual debate day. so, being the group leader and all, i struggle to be the best. force my group mate to do a extensive research on the subject. i was quite scared actually. scared that my group dosen’t perform well (this is our carry mark), scared that we don’t have enough resources and of course, scared of performing. i’m not that active in this kind of thing (debate, public speaking, etc.) while i’m in school. i just see from afar. it’s like the underground thing.

the team

dream or no dream, the ‘closing day’ finally come. i arranged a last minute meeting at the library to discuss about the content and props. i’m shock that my group mates notes were not complete. so, i have to re-do their work, add more info and write their speech (ha, i already predict this would happen). i am frustrated that we can’t borrow the projector from the meeting room. that means no powerpoint presentation. management sucks. plus the library wireless is fucked up. the notebook can’t even bind with the wireless router. it department sucks.

after the friday prayer, i sit a while in the car, listening to the tunes of a.c.a.b, relaxing and catch a breath. waiting for our group turn is boring. but, we got some extra pointer looking at the group presenting before us. i was busy writing some part of my speech then walking around, taking pictures, videos and what not. then, our moment came. our turn. thankfully the loudest person in our opponent is the third speaker. that won’t give us any problem. i guess.

the rules are fucked up actually. who’s idea actually to give a speaker 3 minutes to talk. wtf is this? the person who set the rules clearly dosen’t listen to me when i’m talking about the rules. our team suffers a loss of points in the content area because we don’t have the time. 3 minutes? oh, come on. we’re not robot that can talk very fast. it’s sad that we have more info/data but can’t explain it. i was scratching my head, looking and listening to my group mate struggle to explain in such a short time. it was that frustrating that they generate a ‘silence spot’ and eventually wasting the time.

then it’s my turn. oh my. my blood is not stable. my heart was racing. i try to calm myself, breathing in and out. i opened with the usual greeting text. my voice was ‘not right’ at first. then the confidence started to kick in. i started to feel the beat. i tell them about the similarity, the disadvantages, the future technology, etc. talk about anything i can remember. when the time expires, i keep talking and the chairman chairwomen chairgirl force me to end my speech (actually, the speaker can talk more eventhough the time has ended. it just there is no more points after it. the opposition or the chairman should’nt interrupt me, it breaks my rhythm). i even got my ‘slient moment’ thing, scrambling the notes for something to talk about. which is sucks by the way. i’m expecting to fill it with many info as i can. i end my speech with a quote. which i stole from the movie the matrix. i just changed it a bit to match my speech. ha ha ha…

finally, it all ended. we have to wait for our lecturer to count the marks. during that time, i was busy taking pictures and videos, talking, etc. ahh…the point count is finished. it’s the result time. looking at our group performance just now, again i’m scratching my head. preparing myself. i’m thinking that my group gonna crash and burn. maybe it’s not that hard. but when the lecturer announced that my group is the winner, boy, am i glad and happy. phew, my group was like very exited and started screaming and what not. it’s anarchy. i’m embarresed a bit by that. with the effort and the dedication i showed, this is like my personal victory. it’s like the apparentice show. i’m the group manager and none of us get voted out that week.

the swag

i also noticed some unhappy faces from the other group. maybe it’s the ‘not satisfied with the result’ thing. yeah. sorry for that. anywhoo, it’s a competition. somebody have to win and somebody have to lose, right? sadly i didn’t have the chance to shake hands with the opposition. they left so fast. uhh…maybe later. finished with that, there is the best debater prize. one person from each group make it to the final count. the winner? ha ha ha…it’ me. me. i am the best debater. i have the extra points in content and props. i was smiling, don’t know what to say. i looked at other contestant. of course, full of dissapointment. i can’t help you guys with that. sorry. but anywhoo i’m sure you guys can take the reality.

ha, my group has started to asked me for their ‘upah’. before this, i have promised my group that i will give them a pizza treat if the group wins. of course, i’m true to my words. we decided to set up the date later. so, here i am. writing this long ass, boring post, sitting beside the prize which we decided to open later.

remember kids. team work is the crucial thing when doing a group work. all of the team must do their part. there’s no i in team work. but of course, we also must do an extreme research, together. find it all. discipline. try to be the best in everything you do. if you put your mind to it, you can achieve anything.